I've been taking my kiddo on walks around the backyard in the morning. Looking around I'm reevaluating my garden plans that I implemented last year. It could be that being a mom is really changing how I think about things or just that I have a really finite amount of time available or it could be that all the ligustrum and other trash trees as well as the poison oak have grown back after all I did to eradicate them. I also have a bumper crop of weeds, grassy ones that have grown over everything even my raised beds. Part of me really wants a nice garden with beautiful plants that is really planned out and part of me wonders if we were meant to struggle with nature this way? Do I really want to play tug-of-war with these plants or can I find a way to live comfortably with them? I have a really limited amount of time in the backyard, so I have to maximize the time I do spend and really evaluate my family's needs. As much as I wanted a place and space for myself in the backyard and just to have something beautiful to admire at one time, now I look at it and wonder where is space for my kiddo to play back here?
I'm thinking now what do I want to save and what is not worth saving? What died after only a year? Granted it was a nice year, but still I was planning for long-term. Can I say that my garden experiment failed or should I say it succeeded beyond my expectations, but my wants/needs have changed.
Part of me wishes, now that I am out of time that I could just tell someone else what I want and say go at it, but then again the best part of gardening is losing myself in the work.
Your viewpoint and wants have changed for sure. And that was actually something you posted at the beginning. That if you didn't like it you can always change it. You have a family now and that's going to change tons - even your weeds. ;)
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